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Cathartic Ink

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Joyful Girl

I just found out that my friend Dan decided he’s not volunteering to go to Iraq.  A big part of me is glad because now someone that I love a lot won’t be over there in danger, but at the same time, someone that someone else loves a lot will be instead of him.  So, read more

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If We Manage to Survive This Earthquake, Will We Ever Be the Same?

Today has been a day of really observing my surroundings.  I’ve been sitting in the same spot since about 2.30 this afternoon, in my navy blue chair, in the southwest corner of my room, with the blinds up, basking in the afternoon sun, when it was out.  And when it wasn’t I was focused on read more

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I Am Not a Kitten, Stuck Up a Tree Somewhere

So, I got a wedding invitation in the mail today…Addressed to me on the outside and I open it up and on the inner envelope it says “Bonnie & Guest”.  So, maybe I should start now hunting for a person named Guest, because I sure don’t know anyone. 🙂 At any rate, anything addressed to read more

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Hot Like Wasabi When I’m Next To Your Body

So, today, right now, I am taking a much needed break and contemplating graduate school.  I need to talk to a couple of my professors, but I’m kind of thinking I might apply for graduate school just in case.  Right now my two choices for more schooling would be the University of Maryland (the preservation read more

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Travel Tips

Okay, I’m going to try and rectify my loser-ness.  Lemme see, where do I start? The bus. Greyhound scares me. Men with only half their teeth, dirty women with saggy breasts, men that breathe on me and call me “Big Squaw”…so every time I take one I try to find a guy around my age read more

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And Bends Before An Astounding Rain

Okay, so in news today, Rowan linked to me from his page (Ordinary Language in “Los Blogos” there to the right) today. Whee! In other news, I’m still tired, and since I went to the eye doctor today (hooray blue light!) I don’t feel like staring at a computer screen so my real post will read more

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She Wakes Up Smashed as Hell

Okay, so I’m home, I’m alive, the only people I know of that read this should already know that much. I have a lot of stuff to type out, because its been a fun and crazy weekend and Monday, but I really shouldn’t tie up the phone line for much longer tonight *shakes her fist read more

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I see blue skies through the tears in my eyes and I realize I’m going home

Well, this will be my last post for a couple of days, until Sunday at least. I’m heading out in about an hour and a half to take a Greyhound bus to the cities to spend Saturday night with a friend. We’ll be taking in the art fair uptown and probably hitting up the Walker read more

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The Long and Winding Road

So, I’m sitting here at work, waiting for my day to be over, and I realize how much of my summer I have spent sitting here at work, staring at the computer screen, putzing about, waiting for my day to be over.  Also, much of that time I sit here and curse the air conditioning read more

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deconstruction

Third post of the day…I was looking through my poetry and sharing some with my friend Sam…And I really love this one…So I figured I’d throw it up here quick…Its not about anyone in specific…At least not anyone I’ve found yet… “Deconstruction” Words, like hammer on a chisel,Strike the eggshell of my psycheBreaking solid into read more

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dragons

Revisiting old thoughts… I see the dragon as my personal symbol.  I used to be really weak, emotionally.I was shaky, insecure and suicidal.  To me, the dragon embodies the internal struggle I.ve gone through, which is why the dragon is curled around a sphere, protecting his soft underbelly parts.  Dragons are often a symbol of read more

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New Job

Hmmm…Sunday, and tomorrow is Monday (obviously!)  I start my new job tomorrow, working as a small scale graphic designer, with mostly simple design projects for my university.  The money isn’t great, but its better than I’d be making at home and I’m just at the point where I need a break from the stress of read more

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